Fallin' in Love with Your Friend . . .

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Fallin' in Love with Your Friend . . .

I've experienced a lot just by getting involved in a so complicated friendship. . .

First, I was afraid because, whenever I look at him, my heart started beating so fast.

I was annoyed of it, on how I was happy when I see him, and how I was sad when he's not there.

I've been liking him over and over again, and I lost track of how many times I've kept forgetting him but couldn't. . . Many people say it's love because it started on a small beginning but developed into a strange and weird feeling.

Every time, before I go to sleep, I've always thought that maybe we won't last long, that maybe we'll stay like this and never move on. 

I've regretted my choice, because once, he confessed to me, and I was surprised, because he still doesn't know that ... I liked him too. But I was afraid to admit it to myself, because I wasn't certain of my decision. 

But seriously, I wanna learn more than just of love, because I want to prove myself that I am not a coward, I can face many challenges as much as I can. But I've never felt heavier in my chest all this time.

We were going to have an upcoming test in ICT, and I was all excited at the same time, nervous, because I was unsure because maybe, I don't know... I won't be able to concentrate again. Honestly, I wanted to be the highest in the quiz, but surprisingly, got one mistake . . . I was all blaming myself for it. I was asking all my other classmates, they said they've got a perfect score which is really because I heard them ask from their seatmates, but I don't really mind.But during the time of answering the test, I was relieved that he wasn't there, because I was determined that I'll be able to perfect the quiz when I can concentrate on it myself. But a few items further, he just suddenly came, barging in with a grin on his face. I was more of relieved than of anxious because that face reminded me to calm myself, it really soothed all things but then later on forgot one answer in the test.

I was curious, "what is the meaning of this?", asked myself while scratching my head. There is no mistake that this is just hallucination, so I hurried down during break with my friend asking the same question again. 'Why is my heart beating fast again?". All these questions reminded me of my failure, I was afraid because I wanted to be more of a successful student but got distracted just by a silly admiration on one single person.

I've said to myself that maybe yes, maybe no. I'll just try my best to catch up with him. Because I know that he still cares for me.......

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